walking on a broken roof while looking at the sky

I'm 17 and from LongIsland. soon to be apart of the g'ville community in FL. everyone has their own kind of outlet, mine just so happens to be beauty. makeup. nails. hair. it's the one thing I can control in my life. the one thing that can go according to my mood and how I want to be seen by the world. I love it. My cousin and my older sister are my best friends in the entire world and I'd be lost without them. Along with the amazing friends I've made over the past few years who I know will always have my back. I'm a caring and sensitive person. I don't so my emotions publicly. I try to help everyone with their problems. meanwhile, on the inside I'm being eaten away by the miserable life I am forced to live. I'm still trying to change it. for now, I'm just going to do the best to be me. and to be happy.